oh, dear.. you are a fool.

i wish you wanted me as much as i want you. if you did you would see how simple it is. i'm sure we can do the distance. and postponing tomorrow only makes things harder on me. and you, i can't lie, i see it. i see it all in your eyes. the love you have for me in your heart.





i am forever lost in your oceans, captive to the shift of the currents.
i wish i could say i tire of you, but you're my nobody.. they don't even compare.

the water, the water didn't realize it's dangerous size

sometimes i long for the ability to express emotion with ease. i am so scared to share the true beauty and depth that i feel. so i push those who show interest away, they frighten me so. and yet this behaviour that contradicts everything i aim to achieve, is my default. often times i catch myself deep in this sea of my own creation but unable to reach the life craft of reason and i drown.. only to wake up and realize that it was a dream, that i can reach the raft.. but only if i try. and sometimes trying is harder than giving in, something i have learnt much about in the last few months. sometimes the labrynth holds more benefits than the road.. so i fight with the currents and swim up to the surface, sometimes moments to late and i am left tredding water; though i know i am strong enough to hold my ahead above water until another ship sails by.

i grow tired of the constant ill of these seas. one day i wish to dive in and swim at peace with the corals and currents. one day i will do just by me.

the water, the water came to realize it's a dangerous size..

imma bee, imma bee.. lol jk i'm a wasp.

not only has there been in a surge in stupid "like" pages of the sort (see title for reference, and if you don't get it.. head straight to the book of faces and make a profile) but i'm not feeling particularily crafty, clever or humourous.. it's been a long day.. and yes i am aware that it's only 4:20(L)
the worst bit was the fatiuge, the shaking.. the jumbled thoughts.. i hate it.
but, the dress is looking good. i'll post a photo sometime in the near future.

speaking of which...

green-eyes for the birds

but honestly, after all is said and done, i wish i could just leave this place. leave everything, leave everyone and just go. far, far away.. start over new, not start at all, sleep, die.. doesn't matter, i just want freedom.. from everything.

from every bind that anchors me here.



what's the fucking point..

wait another day..

i would imagine that if my heart were some elite club, you would be the only member of the v.i.p. you would have your own private seating, just for you. and it would be for you to do with what you will. as it is now.

though i know not how to tell you; your ears are deafened to my gentle words.. like a buoyant breeze to a wall of bricks.. albeit time has begun to erode the wall, breathing whiffs of that very breeze, that honeyed current into a garden so secret, so beautiful that i cannot help but smile at the thought. so i suppose i cannot complain. i will say this, i am unfit for this wait, i simply wish to crash into you and feel you and i intertwined.

pandas?!

so i saw this video approximately 5 minutes ago.. i thought it would be appropriate to post, it's fantastic.. and dodgy. i just loved it... plus the song is a good one.

enjoy!

p.s. i get how to embed things now, the screen is just far too big to fit! the link is 'enjoy!'.

mouthful of diamonds

i love, love, love the things you say to me.
i wish i could be as open with you.
but it's not that easy for me.

don't you dare think, for even a second, that i don't feel these lovely things for you..
or that i don't like the little things you do..
it would be so far from the truth.
i wish you would stop lying to yourself.
you are worth it..