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"can infatuation blossom after time or is it an immediate sensation, that passes as swiftly as it starts?"
"infatuation can be both fleeting and enduring"
"like a wave? where the tide recedes so low you forget it had been?"
"yeah"

Before i had had this conversation, i was under the impression that infatuation was more of a once born incident..

The return of the feeling has brought so many questions to my mind, resulting directly in another sleepless night.. perhaps my first non-homework related all nighter in months. Pardon, i digress.. love, infatuation.. infatuation, love.. But what if the feeling of infatuation is more befitting of the title 'love'.. what if this 'infatuation' is not simply a foolish, unreasoning, or extravagant passion or attraction. If it surpasses these guidelines than is it love? or is there, perhaps, an in between stage? And if so, is that the liking stage, the i'm-falling-for-you stage?? Sometimes there is too much Greyscale, it becomes hard to tell risks from bad choices. Or genuine feelings from the imagined.. Will these always be the choices to be made with matters of the heart and head? A game of assumptions, choosing between charades or broken telephone? Or will there be that one person to effortlessly polish the smears and stains away, making the crystal clear.. the clear previously so passionately fought for..? Oh, i am plagued by my heart and my mind for they are too amicable, though neither knows much more than the other.. And i am left floating in a sea of my own bearing..

all i can hope is that it proves worthy..